So today has been an odd day, I suppose it’s me that’s been odd rather than the day. Maybe odd isn’t the right word, I’ve been a bit out of sorts, overtired and a bit emotional. I cried in Tesco, for no reason other than I was a bit overwhelmed and not sure I could cope with it. I doubt my ability on days when my fatigue (ME/CFS) is bad, because I don’t know what I’m physically, mentally or otherwise going to be able to cope with. I’ve always known anxiety, but this is a new sort. Anyway after my short emotional outburst I pulled myself together and continued around the supermarket, strangely after that I knew I would be alright and could manage it.
I wrote my journalling pages in the afternoon after getting home and having lunch. I was still feeling a bit emotionally wobbly, have done all day really, but sat outside in the sun to write. Mostly wrote about the day and how I was feeling. I had a few moments of insight but mostly just brain chatter. I think being tired slowed me down too.
Later in the afternoon, after a rest and meditation, I tackled the painting. Still feeling emotional and listening to music that made me tearful, I painted a face and a tree. I’d sort of had those two things in mind earlier, but hadn’t planned to paint them. I chose green and mixed different shades with turquoise and white. I used a combination of the plastic palette knife and the large flat brush today. I used the same colours on both pages. I’m sure the symbolism in these paintings could be interpreted in different ways. I had the idea of the tree of life in my head and I think I have done a drawing a tree task in the past where the tree is representative of you and your life. The face I guess is a self portrait of sorts, although not visually an accurate representation. I’m not sure about the green and ochre, they aren’t my favourite colour combinations but I suppose they are both earthy colours. Green is also linked to the heart chakra and emotions and yellow to the sacrel chakra which was the focus of last nights yoga class. I feel today’s painting is a bit of an emotional breakthrough, I prefer painting abstract patterns and things that are visually appealing, but this seems more emotionally connected to me. Image below.
I wrote my journalling pages in the afternoon after getting home and having lunch. I was still feeling a bit emotionally wobbly, have done all day really, but sat outside in the sun to write. Mostly wrote about the day and how I was feeling. I had a few moments of insight but mostly just brain chatter. I think being tired slowed me down too.
Later in the afternoon, after a rest and meditation, I tackled the painting. Still feeling emotional and listening to music that made me tearful, I painted a face and a tree. I’d sort of had those two things in mind earlier, but hadn’t planned to paint them. I chose green and mixed different shades with turquoise and white. I used a combination of the plastic palette knife and the large flat brush today. I used the same colours on both pages. I’m sure the symbolism in these paintings could be interpreted in different ways. I had the idea of the tree of life in my head and I think I have done a drawing a tree task in the past where the tree is representative of you and your life. The face I guess is a self portrait of sorts, although not visually an accurate representation. I’m not sure about the green and ochre, they aren’t my favourite colour combinations but I suppose they are both earthy colours. Green is also linked to the heart chakra and emotions and yellow to the sacrel chakra which was the focus of last nights yoga class. I feel today’s painting is a bit of an emotional breakthrough, I prefer painting abstract patterns and things that are visually appealing, but this seems more emotionally connected to me. Image below.
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